The problem of depression defined in astral terms
The missing colors of the Aura
In the beginning, Girma was waking up in the middle of the night. He used to tell me “The worst is when I wake up. I didn’t want to get out of bed and until 11 o’clock I didn’t want to speak. At 11 o’clock there would be coffee saving me to pass another day.” As I was listening to his story, I was telling to myself – he wakes up at 11 o’clock and is so miserable I am waking up at five and I am so happy. What’s going on? Oh, when you listen to the little dark alleys inside someone’s mind you realize that a color is his aura is missing. In the case of Girma, it was two colors: the sky blue color and the pearly white. So I was working on replenishing these two colors with him. I don’t know why, but these colors were missing in his color palette.
Thinking about it, the pearly white color in a person’s aura is the sign of a very spiritual person- the one who can transcend the realm of physical reality. So it was clear to me why Girma, whose entire life was struggling with depression bend him down to earth, was lacking spiritual loftiness. However, the sky blue is the color indicating the natural gift of communication. Thus, the lack of this color indicates poor communicating ability.
This was quite strange, because, in some sense, Girma appeared to be a very strong communicator. At first, it seemed to me that this was the case of Dissociative Identity Disorder. On one hand he didn’t want to get out of bed or say anything until eleven, and yet on another level hand when it came to professional or public affairs he could perform with excellence. Girma explained this as follow.
“I can be completely in pain. However, once I am inside the office and am facing a group of managers, or customers. I am on. Over time, you learn to deal with the struggle inside. Of course, this conduct expends enormous amounts of energy. You perform well because you are very alert to the possibility of a mistake and thus you always are over-prepared. It’s more like a survival mechanism. You tend to overwork and over plan, over worry, over compensating. You are in a constant agitation to anticipate all the possible risks.”
For me, though, she was consistently there. For example, I am feeling terrible today, my mood has changed and I call her. She would say that compared to six months ago, you are feeling much better and you will feel much better in the future if we will continue to work. She would work on me even if I am not physically here. (Click here if you would like to know how this is possible.)
Did I believe in the beginning that Bea would help me? Of course, not. It’s when you start going through the times when things start feeling normal, feeling different from my usual depresses self that I felt that the progress has been made.
Gradually I started seeing the results of her treatment, experiencing little pleasures of life again, and feeling like I am a kid that I never have been in my orphan childhood. I started to enjoy food, walks, ocean, riding my bike. In effect, this was what life is all about. I went to the ocean. Bea encouraged me to do this as this was the part of the process. She said that I was helping myself to heal from inside as swimming in the ocean helps one to cleanse oneself metaphysically.
So she put a lot of intensive time and energy into the treatments and into helping me gain confidence in healing that she was bringing about into my life. Most of us tend to believe the worst and I didn’t start believing that the change has taken place until I started having consistency in my life. Now I get up in the morning and enjoying myself. I am listening to the music first thing in the morning, looking forward to my coffee, life has become normal and wonderful.